The REAL Lemon Swayze RoadHouse Redemption or Kick Rocks Thread

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Entheogens and temporary organic psychosis, HPPD, paranoia, anxiety, fear

Do you guys ever have any problems related to these or anything like this?
How do you come to terms with your inner conflict and bottled emotions/stress? I find tripping used to help alot with being able to see these things and accept them. That laid the foundation for healing and forward growth in my life in my late twenties. I can't feel the effects of actives anymore due to my medication and ssri. It's a shame, but we all find our own ways to cope and survive in this world. If i was to trip again, I think I would be overcome with immense fear and anxiety at first, followed by a wave of relief and an innate understanding of my psyche and the way it is divided. The way I am a part of everything and at the same time many parts unto those. The different masks I wear and how I let things affect me, the effect I have on others. Emotional maturity, stability, consciousness. There is so much we can learn in the universe. It's like a beautiful sand painting in a tibetan temple, meticulously crafted into a work of art over months, for the sole purpose of being swept away on the breath of the faithful monks, swept up with handmade brooms and thrown back into nature.

Do you guys see the cycle as well?
I believe we are one with everything, pardon the cliché. Our disease is that we perceive ourselves as separate. It is the great lie. Alan Watts was right about what happens when you die. We go back to where we were before we were born.
Logically, you will still exist in four dimensions after your own death. Whether or not it is "experiential" or true nothing, of course nobody knows that. Whether or not you live or die the four fundamental forces of the universe will continue to exist. I realize that I am a part of everything around me, and that I am this little bump of a thing in space-time that can realize and effect. I can conceptualize, conceive abstractions and representations, which are totally alien to the natural world and the physical things around me. They are unfathomable in their beauty.

But the signs and symbols are a slight to God if he is nature in the universe itself. If it is one thing we are a probability. Enough time passed, and we happened. In the face of knowing all that how do I cope? Antidepressants. Coming to terms with my own death, the impermanence of all things and learning to love myself have aided me in developing a sense of self-confidence I never thought I would find, and it's only getting better. Not only is it important, it's vital to surviving and being certain in an uncertain world. Common sense-wisdom for uncertain times is necessary and called for. We are one of the last bastions of that wisdom and the freedom of thought that drives innovation and social change. We are at the base level, the providers. And we will always provide. They love us because we feed the village, and we will continue to feed the village. One hand washes the other.

I am reserving this thread for my future trip reports and any insights I gain I will share with you here. It is my public trip journal and psychological notes, collated neatly and laid out for all to see.
I'm far away, but I hope you will wait for me.

Don't hesitate, what would you say, what would you do if you knew? Who would you tell, if anyone?
Forward momentum, carpe diem. It is the only way. Become one with with the beast, conquer your fear and let yourself be carried on the winds of unconditional love and positivity. Fuck everything else.
Don't let it be too late. It's never too late.

Y'all feel me? It's the real shit I'm after I want raw truth unfiltered just blazing my irises like a burning sun that can see inside my brain. annihilation. Being able to observe my own ego independently at time has helped. Feel free to write anything here. It's non-sequitur and cryptic as hell to begin with. Don't care much about that specifically.

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